jia pa lang
...written on Sunday, Feb. 20, 2005, @ 8:30 p.m.
been trying to train for a nice body and stuff. its not a necessity for me but sometimes i guess im rather competitive in nature. people my age are all in NS or going to get enlisted soon. i dun wanna lose out. u might call that dumb or chidish thinking but i guess its just the pride of a guy.
i stopped eating tidbits which includes ice cream or fried stuffs. the frying one i still can't resist the temptation tho. heh. i'm such a failure, but at least i nv succumb to adele's constant attempt to feed me with some ice cream puffs. actually, i know one small piece of it won't hurt but its just that by doing this, it will give me an opportunity to create an excuse everytime when i'm under temptation.
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sarah wong's mum approached me this morning and asked me to participate in some finale drum performance along with 6-7 more drummers. it's gonna be awesome. today the sermon talked about favouritism which sort of forced me to reflect on certain issues that happened last december.
we are always in a situation whereby we have to make choices. choices that we make, regardless of whether is it the correct one, there's no turning back. once made, we have to face the consequences, be it positive or negative. this is when we either regret or enjoy. enjoyment is self explanatory but for regrets. we have a two options. one is to ignore which is a fast escape that will lead to a bigger regret. on the other hand, if we choose to rectify the problem, that makes things easier for everyone. earlier on in one of my entry, i talked about initiative. well, apparently, for this choice that i made, i regretted alot and i really wished that i could turn back time which is obviously impossible. like a broken vase, even if i tried to glue it back, there will still be cracks. a close friendship is hard to come by but i chose to let it go. reason being: self centeredness (kept thinking of how that person can meet my needs), insensitive (failed to put myself in that person's shoes), pride of a guy. anyway, i just want to say im sorry. i really do.
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valentine's day was great. i had good time catching up with my old friends from jc. one of them is looking for a church to settle in now. so happy for her. the other one, i am still reaching out to her. from what i heard, her mum is attending church now, which is quite encouraging too. yeah. praise the Lord!!