God works!!
...written on Friday, Feb. 25, 2005, @ 10:26 p.m.
this week was pretty exciting. i finally managed to share the gospel with someone, my DAD!! it was pretty exciting. he was telling me about his business and stuff. usually, i won't be interested. he talked about his daily prayers and his hope and dreams. i too, shared with him about my prayers, about how God answer my prayers. i did a comparison on the effectiveness of our God and his gods. we even talked about the history of buddhism and christiany. eventhough he didn't receive Christ after i shared, i was quite sure that he just took one big step towards the kingdom of God. oh wait, haven reached the climax yet. he told me to pray for him. heh. pray for his business and pray for our family on the whole.
i recall few months back, when my mum was still slacking at home, we too talked about religion and yes, the same thing happened. she asked me to pray for my grandmother. God is indeed working in my family.
today, my friends were talking about me all of a sudden. they said something like Pes A are people with perfect eyesight, super fit etc. i'm in Pes A too wad, wear glasses and not exactly the fittest guy in the world. they then talked about OCS and why i cannot get selected for it. i think i look pretty fierce wad. heh. i am right? don't be deceived by my guai kia spectacles. oh well, who cares!! the don't select people by looks. i have the *ah hem* inner quality (beauty)---> sounds familiar. :P
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24th feb
was frigging pissed becuase of some slipper incident. we were having PCON lecture that day and halfway through the lesson, i accidentally pushed james' table, so his stuff dropped on the floor. it's quite common for this to happen since the tables in the lecture hall are of koyak quality. anyhow, james was pretty bored, so he decided to throw my slippers down the LT. the slipper flew pass Qiurong and landed one seat in front of her (the first row from the stage). i didn't want to retrieve it immediately because firstly, lesson was still on and it would be very distracting if i stood up just to get my slipper. secondly, i was doing my work. heh, something relevant to the course of study obviously. and lastly, i don't really care since i usually walk around the LT barefooted.
after the lesson, the girl sitting beside Qiurong confronted me and demanded me to pick it up immediately because its disgusting. i hestitated awhile before answering her. actually i just snapped at her, asking her to wait cuz im busy. then she was like:
yan ni: can u go and get ur slippers now?
me: erm wait, im busy. will get it later.
yan ni: u know how disgusting it is anot?
me: its just a slipper wad
yan ni: imagine if i put my shoes in front of u, how will u feel?
me: okie wad. u can do it if u want.
yan ni: u don't mind doesn't mean others doesn't mind
(yan ni then walks out of the LT for her break)
wads wrong with people nowadays, picking a fight over slippers? actually i know its partly my fault. was not sensitive enough. i should have apologised immediately when she asked me to. i guess everyone's feeling stress due to the final year report which is due in two weeks time. sigh! when girls want to ask guys to do something, at least spare a thought for our pride. if she had used a softer approach, i might have picked it up straight away. from the start she just shouted at me and expect me to do what she commanded me to? do i look like a slave to u? a dog or wadeva?
i must admit that i have changed abit in school. my ego shot up recently when i received several compliments among my friends. its a guy thing, i don't really know how to explain it in words. anyway, i dun give in so much expecially when people become unreasonable. i dun want to impress girls by being super nice to them even when its against my principle. i am who i am. i don't change for people. i change when i feel like it. there is a difference.
above all these, at the end of the day, i must also make sure that i can still be a living testimony for Christ. therefore, i will apologise to whoever that i have offended. its really hard because its not really my fault and if i do that people will take advantage of me once again. i have to really humble myself and trust that God will see me through. was reading through an email by Ben Ho. at the end of the mail, there was this verse:
'anyone who trusts Him will
never be put to shame"
Rom 10:11
i thought it was pretty relevant. heh. God reveals to us in the most unexpected ways.
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thoughts for the day
james told me that its very important not to take our friends for granted. have i?
am i ready for the second coming of Christ? if not, what can i do to prepare myself?