non homogeneous entry
...written on Saturday, Feb. 26, 2005, @ 8:47 p.m.
its a saturaday night and i am home before nine. how sad is that man. recently i realised that alot of people leave church immediately after yf. kinda weird. last time people usually stay back in church until 7 plus. now, 10 mins after yf and everyone's gone.
i had to go back early today to finish up my work. but then again, i studied for 3 hrs in the morning already so actually i could afford to spend my time outside with friends. unfortunately, bus 28 went off when i was about to cross the road. thus, everyone left without me. i didn't want to travel alone so i waited for eliel amy yimin and that whole bunch for dinner but eliel and his whole gang decided to go paya lebar for dinner whereas yimin and amy prefer to go serangoon central. obviously, i followed amy and yimin.
dinner at macs was pretty okie. according to amy, every one dollar spent at macs, we are entitled to 100 points. that means, if i were to buy a fillet o fish, i will get the next one for free. its quite worth it right? we had a nice conversation together. it was about love language, mob pple, traumatising tjc guys, gays and stuff. i was quite amused or probably shocked and disgusted. oh well, amy's nice to talk to. i feel as though i could tell her most of the things. heh. i guess experience comes with age. :x JUST KIDDING!!
oh yah, we talked about friendship too. we mentioned about catherine (not her real name). she needs her close friends to be with her all the time. amy is telling me that friends should be so sticky all the time. afterall, we have other friends to entertain too. not being together doesn't mean that we are not there for each other. i thought that was very deep. i too, fall into the same trap as catherine. i suppose that my love language, quality time and touch, both have to exist at the same time before i can be really really close to someone. the ironic thing is that i realised that towards certain people, i can dun spend time with them and yet be close to them. can't really explain y. for example edwin, people hardly see me talking to him but actually everytime we chat with each other, our conversation can be rather deep.
weekends is the time when i can really take a break. i convinced myself that one should not work during these two days. somehow or rather, i had to compromise abit because of that stupid final year project. oh btw, cg time was great today. the whole cg was present and we had two new friends with us (one was which came down the second time), stephanie and charlene. issit charlene? heh. we had a total of 14 people. it was super cool. too bad the cg time was rather short today. we could have gone on and on and on. the fellowship that our cg had previously was pretty effective. praise God for that. now, i suppose the next step we must take is to focus on God and loving God so that we can love one another more. our love for God must increase, in order for our fellowship grow deeper, not the other way round. there is a difference. one is god dependent and the other one is by our own means. as u can see, the path that we must take is kinda obvious right?
tommorrow marks the end of our 21 days of challenge. for those who managed to do it, congratulations!! and as for those who didn't managed to do it, better do so asap. it is for YOUR OWN GOOD.
heh. its quite a happy day. i love being in church, i love being in YF. it does make me feel old but i don't really care. my close friends are there, my buddy is there, most importantly, GOd is there and God is doing alot of work in TM412. if u don't believe it, feel it for urself. open your hearts to Him and breathe in his presense. yes, his presense is so thick that u can virtually breathe it in. i am not bragging or exaggerating. instead of doubting my words, try asking God to review to u. it will all make sense when u experience it yourself.
heh heh. just remembered something. good luck to amy during the beach outing. i would seriously go if i could. cg outing is always incredibly fun. i will be missing all of u. six days of shopping will most probably bored me to death. alrite then.
thoughts for the day
- have i been reaching out to my friends?
- have i prayed for my friends? it won't hurt us or take alot of time to pray for people right? that means we really have no excuse not to pray for them.
- God v.s Fellowship
i think i got quite a unique way of updating my blog because my thoughts are rather disorganised. i update not from top to bottom but rather, everytime i think of something, i will scroll up and type a new paragraph in between the paragraphs that are somehow related. heh. and the fact that my entry don't have a specific topic, my title are often unrelated. cool eh.